It Could Always Be Worse

I have been spending insane amounts of time on Facebook lately. I guess it's the desire to connect with the outside world after such a long time. The past couple of days, my news feed has been overloaded with people who are struggling with one thing or another. I have been thinking a lot about  those around me and their trials. I wouldn't trade my trials for any one of theirs.

Trever and I have been talking lately about how things were at home while I was away. He has also been sharing more of his thoughts, fears etc that he had while I was gone. I tell him over and over how he had the harder part. I got to be waited on hand and foot, rest for weeks, sleep during surgery etc. He was the one who had to wait on me while I was on bed rest at home. He slept on the couch when I was away, to help ease the pain of sleeping in an empty bed. He juggled 5 children, hospital visits, work, house duties, etc. He did have tons of help from amazing family and ward members, but at the end of the day, he was alone. Left to the dark quiet nights of contemplation. I guess quiet is an over statement. The girls had some rough nights as well. He put his business on hold, so that he could make sure that our girls were secure and well taken care of through this tough time. We both knew that for them to get through the endurance battle ahead of them, they needed as much stability and routine as possible. He really tried not to over use those who offered help, because he didn't want to burn them out. He sat down at the hospital during my 11 hour surgery, waiting to hear the slightest glimmer of hope. He has been my nurse since then, taking care of my every need and never complaining. He has been through so much the past few months. I wouldn't be able to handle it!

Some other trials that friends and family are going through...

My sister has been struggling with renal (kidney) failure for months now. She has finally found a match for a transplant from my sweet cousin. They will both be going into surgery on Tuesday. Please pray for them. I can't imagine how scared they both are! And their poor mothers!! I would way rather it be me going through it than watching my children go through it.

My other cousin, just sat down at the hospital as her son went through surgery on his inside plumbing system. A friend also sat while her son was taken into surgery. I hate surgery!! I seriously cringe at the thought of my children going through it.

I know of 2 different families who have lost their mother to cancer in the last two weeks. One was a little boy in my kindergarteners class. Poor little guy! Another is some dear friends that I grew up with. Their mom ended up becoming a dear friend as well.  Another family just found out, their dad has cancer again.

Another distant cousin just lost her mom to a heart attack. My cousin, just had her baby about the same time I had Caleb.

A woman in my ward has been taking care of her sweet hubby who has MS. He just got released from yet another hospital visit. I tell you, not that I can even imagine what he is going through, but I think the spouses have it even harder. They have to juggle the demands of life all while wanting and needing to drop everything to care for the love of their life.

Another dear friend who has the same thing I had, but way worse, just found out how much worse. Hers not only effects her bladder, it also effects her colander and cervix. She will have to have a catheter and a poopiter ( not sure what its called, but a bag for her bowels) for 4 months. I'm freaking out about a month!! Not to mention she still has close to 10 weeks or so of bed rest before that day.

A few different friends are struggling with the possibility of divorce.

The list goes on and on. I have to say, after all of this... I am so thankful for my trials. I'm not just saying that either. Mine defiantly hasn't been easy, and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy... But I am thankful the Lord gave me this trial instead of some of these other ones.