Guess Who's in a Big Boy Crib?

Trever and I went to see Caleb late last night. We walked in and his room felt huge! He and his roomie both graduated out of their incubator cribs. (I have no clue what their real names are) They are now in big boy cribs. No more temperature controlled environments. He has been able to continue keeping his temperature controlled on his own and breath well on his own. He is growing so fast. He is up to 4lbs 15oz. A whole pound bigger than his birth weight! He also lost a little bit that first week.(totally normal) so he has gained about one and a half pounds in 2 weeks. Such a good boy! We got to dress him, change him, take his temp etc. you would think we were first time parents, with the way we were acting. It is so much more scary to hold and change such a tiny baby. Trever was changing him and the nurse Marie was watching. No pressure right? He made a comment about not wanting to break him. Then he said "my hands..." And she piped in saying "are as big as he is." Ah it was hilarious.

When he was all buttoned up, we realized that his feeding tube was now all the way down his back. So it took the three of us to try to get it out. Oh my goodness it was so funny. The nurse was cracking jokes the whole time. You had to be there.

I talked to his nurse Jane today. She was his first nurse I believe. She said he is doing well but she is disappointed that he doesn't want anything to do with "nippling." He was rooting so well last week and hasn't wanted to do anything since. The second he tries to swallow, his heart rate goes down and he starts to choke. So they don't try again. I know he can do it, he has before, but not sure why he isn't now. She said that he is just being a wimpy little white boy. Lol I guess that is what they call him now. I have a feeling that Marie named him that. I had gotten the vibe that he was just just being lazy. It just depended on the nurse I talked to that day. Some didn't seam worried, others did. She said they are setting him up with a speech therapist tomorrow or Tuesday to see what they think. The newborn speech therapists work with the babies on the suck, swallow and breath reflex/coordination.its amazing what they can do. So depending on how that visit goes... We will see if they think he needs help or just more time.  Jane said it could be that he just knows I can't handle all six kids right now, so he is waiting until I am ready, then he will jump on it. I wouldn't be surprised if that is the case.

My brother Chad and his wife Mindy got to hold him for a second. Then I hogged him the rest of the time. It's finally getting to the point where I look forward to holding him for long periods of time now. Before, it was just super painful after a little while, but I am able to last so much longer now!

I was able to go to church for the first time in 4 months today! I only did sacrament meeting, so I didn't push it. Oh wow it was so good to be back! I wanted to get in a week or two before Caleb gets home. I'm going to want to keep him germ free as long as possible when he gets home.

The meeting was about eternal marriages and families. Our friends, the Lees spoke. Some things they said really hit home fore me. Especially with recent events. The closing song was "Families Can Be Together Forever". Yeah I pretty much cried through the whole song. I am so thankful to still be here with my eternal family!

Our dear friend Laura Day sang "His hands" for a special musical number. She is a recent convert to the church. Our ward has been so blessed to have her an her family. She is Kaylee's nursery teacher. They are good little buddies.

Anyway, I love that song. A few months ago, Trever and our friend David gave me a blessing. (Yes I have had a few of them lately) David said that he felt like The Lord was holding us in the palm of his hand. I have thought a lot about his hands lately. I have felt multiple times, that he has carried me through this trial. I was telling Trever the other day, that I never understood that poem "footprints" before. As I contemplated on the past 4 months, I started to see how he has carried me. There are times in our lives where he lets us make our own decisions and do our own thing. He quietly walks near us, allowing us to choose the path. Other times, in great trial, he takes care of all of those details for us. He prepared the doctors years ago for my surgery. He prompted the Bishop to hold a ward wide fast for us. He. Sent me doctors and nurses who knew how to comfort and care for me. Caleb too. He sent angels upon angels both on this side of the veil and the other, to take care of my children, my husband, our financial needs and emotional needs. He took care of the details and carried us through it. He is still carrying us. I am so thankful for His hands. For their comforting and loving embrace. My testimony and my relationship with him, has grown so much through all of this. I would do it all over again.