9 Amazing Years

Today is our anniversary. We have been married for 9 years! They have been amazing years. Trever has taken such good care of me through 6 babies. He has supported me though all of my crazy spontaneous projects. He knows when to make me laugh. When to let me cry, and even when to cry with me. He is an amazing husband and father. I am so grateful that I found him!

We went down to see Caleb yesterday. They put him on his new machine at a 3. Trever got me a button up shirt so that I could do some more kangaroo care with him. If you don't know what that is... It's a great way to get some skin to skin time. They keep him in just his diaper, then they put him on my chest and I button my shirt around him. I hold him just like he is my little Joey. It's one of the greatest feelings ever!

I was able to hold him for a few hours. He had a couple of apnea moments which was scary for me. But he recovered quickly. They want to try weaning him from the feeding tube, and onto bottle and breast in the next few days. i hope and pray that he picks up on it well! I am trying to hit it hard with pumping, so that I can build up my milk and be ready for him.

Last night I had a couple spots of blood on my garments and my stomach was oozing just a little bit. All of my fears came coming back about the doctors appointments this week. I had myself a little panic attack about my whole healing process. It has been scary to have random things happen and not sure what they mean. I had even more spots today. I can't tell if they are coming out vaginally or from the catheter area. Both of which should not happen with a hysterectomy.

The perks of having a hysterectomy not having to deal with any more bleeding! No periods, no cramps, no birth control. Ah, I love it! Well I will someday when I am healed. Lol. They did keep the overies, so no early menopause either.

I tried calling the Urologist a few times this morning. With no luck. I was supposed to get my drain out today and I guess I was supposed to make the appt. some called me, and some I was supposed to call. So I'm even more stressed tonight not to have that taken care of. I did go to the trauma dr today to have him double check the incision. They said it looks ok. The layers underneath are sewn together still, so that's good. They said that its not bad enough to worry about stitches etc, so I just need to follow up with my PPA doctors and see what they say.

Trever spent most of the morning with sweet Caleb. Then we went together this afternoon. Caleb is down to 1.5 on his high flow oxygen machine. He actually pulled it out of his nose and the monitors never went off. No one noticed for a bit. The nurse said, "well I guess he is weaning himself!"

We Skype with the girls so they could see their brother in something besides just pictures. It made it so much more real for them to see us touch him are Trever to hold his little hand with his finger. There was a lot of screaming going on. Even Becca was jabbering with excitement and her little finger going crazy. It was a priceless moment to say the least.

We went to Applebee's tonight to celebrate our anniversary. I didn't last as long as I would have liked. But hey, I made it! It hit the spot so nicely! I have been craving that place for months. We then went to Costco. I some how lost my charger cord in the move or something. So i was using batteries. they were already burned out, so we decided to get some at costco since t uses 8 batteries at a time!I rode around in the cart with my "lemon aid" filled tube connected to a nice little bag. I can't wait till I get it out! I always wonder what people think about someone going out in public with one.

Well, we are going to catch up on our show "Once Upon a Time" now. We will see if I can make it through without falling asleep. So tired tonight!